Hiiiii

I came out to my dad!! Via email lmaoo. It went well!! Like really well.

I was surpised by his reaction. I was expecting much more hesitation. But nope. So now I can finally fucking relax about it, since now I am out to everyone that matters.

I do now feel very silly working myself up. I had a panic attack at the dnd session thinking about coming out to him. I feel like I judged him. I felt very paranoid about him. I know he absolutely has said transphobic things, but they feel like false memories now. I suppose however he has never been hateful towards trans people. Or maybe he its such a positive reaction because its me, and not someone else?

So while I accept that he accepts me, I still can’t get out of my head all the other things he has said. I have terrible memory, so ive begun writing notes on the things he says. Its such a jarring thing reading it. He honestly frightens me and disturbs me a bit. Makes me doubt his acceptance. I dont know who he is.

Oh well lmao. A convo with the pscyh to be had.

And also I am now fully, publicly, a women!!! So thats cool.

-Minty