37 years young. Tomorrow, I’m finally asking my home physician to send me to a gender identity clinic to assess whether I have dysphoria according to my country’s standards and policies. If my physician does send me there, then within a few years I might get the much needed diagnosis and then I will finally be eligible for HRT.
MEANWHILE.
I have made a list of things that I can start exploring in order to feel more comfortable with the woman within. Gosh… Please excuse my phrasing. I’m so effing closeted. 😅
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Hair removal - booked!!! Going on the 27th.
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Perfumes - planned!!! Trying some out tomorrow.
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Nails - don’t even know where to start. I have NEVER even given these babies a second’s thought. 😭
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Wigs - I have no hair. If and when I get diagnosed, the state will provide a certain amount every year to buy wigs and they will refer me to a professional wig maker as part of the treatment for dysphoria.
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Makeup - no idea where to start. Is there ANY other way than watching YouTube tutorials? Although I totally accept that this probably is the most effective way.
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Clothes - am I just supposed to try on everything I find pretty? 😅🩷🩵🤍
Congratulations! It’s awesome that you finally get to live the way you have always been inside.
A general piece of advise: While everything may feel exciting and knew, keep in mind that a transition is a marathon, not a sprint. A lot of things (such as hair removal for example) require patience and while it can never be fast enough, it is better to be mentally prepared. The same goes for HRT, while it’s awesome to have it, physical changes can take anywhere from months to years before they become visible.
I do not want to temper your enthusiasm, but advise you to manage your expectations. On the flip side, this also means that you can take your time. You have a chance to try things out before you settle on how you want to look and what feels best. You do not have to have all the answers right away. You can and you should experiment.
Godspeed, friend!
Thank you for your kind words! 💙 I will definitely keep in mind, that awesome phrasing: it’s a marathon, not a sprint. It’s like you saw right through me. I was in fact in a rush on the inside. 😆