And I don’t mean metaphorically tired, like physically tired. I feel like since Trump took office the amount of mental load consumed by his antics (edit: fascism in general) has physically worn me down. I used to have energy to exercise, do hobbies, or like even yardwork. Now all I want to do is lay in bed. I even have a hard time spending time with my family and friends. Luckily I am still engaged and productive at work, but that’s the only time I feel good which is not what I want out of life.
I probably should just up my antidepressants and log off
Between work and school (and before that a horrible black pit of grief and depression) I have basically 0 energy for anything else. Feels like I’m always playing catch-up, with school, with bills, with life.
I’ve been dreaming about dropping everything and trying to become a baker, but I’m afraid that’s just my latest “the grass is greener on the other side” impulse that’s led me to job/school hop my entire adult life
I’ve had this exact same thought. I like baking, its fun. But the getting up at 3 am thing is a little much lmao
The 3am mornings would be rough, but if I’m able to work alone that would be worth it
You just gotta get on that TikTok Baker grind. Do a bunch of ASMR cookies with a bad bunny song in the background.
Ugh I’d rather get up at 3am and earn an honest living than churn out “content”
I feel like there used to be a bit of dignity with “content” production back when you’d basically run a long form channel that was equivalent to a TV show. There’s just something yucky about having to filter your craft through brain rot.
Yea, I could see the appeal of doing like a weekly/biweekly release of longer form videos, something one can put thought and effort into, but it seems like the current trend is short form shorts/tiktok style content which doesn’t appeal to me at all.
Plus if I saw a video I made spliced together with Minecraft parkour I’d have an aneurysm
I’m thinking like Alton Brown style “hey look at this cool thing” type videos. Those are totally different. I have noticed a lot of tiktok cooks/bakers starting to make long form videos again though. With the TikTok just being an ad essentially for the longer 10-15 cooking/baking video that actually shows you how to do something instead of something just being done.