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  • I agree with the sentiment as to the futility of the doomer/nihilist mindset, being a reformed (or rather, being in the process of reforming) doomer nihilist myself, I know the call of the void all to well. However…

    It’s not just the USA declining - it’s really everywhere. Call it whatever you want, late-stage capitalism, the rise of the techbroligarchy and fascism-adjacent currents, etc…

    But there’s stuff going on. It’s harder to get a job, harder to get an education, harder to earn a living wage, harder to get ahead in general. And it’s everywhere.




  • Yeah, I’m aware of the game speed etc being tied to FPS, but From Software made DS3 run at 60 FPS on Xbox and PS5 over 3 years ago.

    Iirc, it’s using the same engine as Bloodborne, so conceivably, they could get it working in Bloodborne as well.

    The more logical thing to do, of course, would be to rehash it for a 10 year anniversary release with 4K/60, but that has come and gone, so…

    I don’t even own a PS5, and never will, but the game is so god damn good that it’s (another) crime for Sony to leave it like this.



  • Here’s a picture of Nito in his favorite jammies (we still have them).

    I don’t think they did it deliberately (the in-laws). I think they needed someone external to be with them when they made the decision, so they could be sure it was the right one (which it was, as any competent vet would say).

    In any case, I don’t really judge them for it, and even though it was very emotionally draining, I understand the impulse.

    But you’re right, grief is a motherfucker, and everyone has to do it in their own way and in their own time, ain’t no way you’re escaping that looming shadow, unless you’re a psycho, of course…

    I hope you feel better. Hopefully better days lie ahead.


  • 3 weeks ago (February 18th), me and my girl’s Sphynx cat died unexpectedly and dramatically (literally took his last breath in my arms).

    He was only 10 years old with no prior obvious health issues.

    He was like a son to us and the most sweet and gentle being that ever was, and we’re still all fucked up.

    Yesterday, my in-laws call my girl (we live in the same apartment building) and kind of ambush us into pushing them into making the decision to put down their almost 16 year old Shar pei, who again, was just the sweetest boy.

    I’ve been sobbing uncontrollably in between doing routine shit for the last three weeks, and today I just woke up feeling done with this fucking life.

    I know it’s not the same, but nevertheless, just wanted you to know you’re not alone shoveling shit. And I’m sorry you have to go through this.






  • kaosof@lemmy.worldtocats@lemmy.worldLost my boy today
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    We lost our sphynx very dramatically two weeks ago, and he was only 10 years old with no prior health issues, so I know how it feels.

    You’re not alone.

    Me and my partner are still devastated and find ourselves sobbing uncontrollably every day.

    It was like losing a child.

    Life is on auto pilot these days.

    I hope I’ll see a good day again.


  • There are a couple of studies on this, and the findings are admittedly kind of scattered, but here are some key points.

    One study suggests as much as 50% of people on the spectrum have at least four (or more) comorbid conditions (a vast variety of things, e.g. ADD, intellectual disabilities etc).

    Another study found that 95% of children with ASD had comorbidities. Again, the rain man trope is rather strongly rooted in our sociocultural reality tunnel.

    I’ve met a lot of people on the spectrum in my life (about 1% of the population are diagnosed, after all), and almost all of them have also had either ADD, intellectual disabilities, medical disabilities like Crohn’s disease, Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, PCOS, hormonal or chromosomal disorders and/or other psychological conditions like schizophrenia or other schizotypal disorders BPD, bipolar disorder etc.

    The fact is that a Sheldon Cooper is kind of a unicorn among autistics.

    But truthfully, my observation that most autistics are below average intelligence is almost entirely anecdotal (yet with a rather sizeable sample pool), because admittedly I’m struggling to find any hard data on it.

    Some figures I’ve seen say 32% have below 70, 25% have 70-84, 40% have 85-115, with only about 3% being above 115.

    But here’s at least one study finding that 55% of autistic kids have an intellectual disability (below 70 IQ).


  • People still think of autism in like… Rain Man-terms.

    As much as people like to think popular depictions (The Big Bang Theory, Abed in Community, etc) of autistic behavioral patterns are somehow furthering “the cause” (whatever that is) - ultimately, they amount to little more than vaudeville and can be incredibly damaging to people who don’t “seem autistic”.

    It’s very tiring to assure people that yes, you are indeed autistic, when all they know is Sheldon Cooper and Raymond Babbitt.

    Especially annoying if they think you’re some sort of genius, when the average autistic’s intelligence generally is lower than average.

    Especially now that so many fucking lunatic autistics are committing atrocities.

    If you’re obviously greatly disabled autistic=not threatening High functioning autistic=liability

    I was diagnosed 20 years ago, and even I had a very hard time recognizing and accepting that my own partner is also autistic (now diagnosed as an adult).

    But then again, it seems to manifest dramatically different in men v.s. women, as well as there not really being any depictions of autistic women in media for the longest time.

    And a gigantic part of autistic women no doubt went undiagnosed for a long time (and still are).


  • I don’t understand why these Google alternatives don’t lean hard on actually replacing Google’s services.

    Myself as an example; if Notesnook had collaboration, I’d switch in a heartbeat.

    Thr main use-case for an app like this for me is in things like grocery lists, to-do lists etc, all of which are impossible or annoying to do with Notesnook.

    For general offline notes that need to be encrypted there are other solutions I’d rather use. I’d like if I could just use one app for it.

    Me and my partner would HAPPILY pay for an app to get out of Google’S clutches.

    There’s money on the table, but they ain’t counting it yet.

    Why?


  • I like it, but haven’t played more than a few hours.

    The voice acting and (most) character faces feel insanely dated, though. Fantasy just comes off weird in an American accent.

    The game runs poorly and doesn’t really look and feel that great considering the processing cost, but that’s just Unreal Engine 5 being shit.

    Those are my biggest complaints.

    Combat is pretty engaging and I think it’s pretty cool, but it can be kind of health-spongey. Feels like it needs some work to feel better and more fluid.

    The story seems okay, although I haven’t gotten far. Kind of generic fantasy akin to Divinity Original Sin 2/Baldur’s Gate 3 or Pillars of Eternity (duh).

    Honestly, I like that it’s not just another murder hobo simulator and has a bit more focused story.

    It’s a pretty solid 6-7/10, which is fine. Maybe it’ll grow on me, but there’s no chance of it becoming another Cyberpunk 2077.

    Hopefully they learned from making this and The Outer Worlds 2 is a lot better than the first one.