yeah I’m in the NY metro area!!

sorry you can’t get it legit, hopefully you find some avenue that’s less sketchy 😅

yes they always stick together!!

I wanna get a big haj soon :3

I wish, but Nassau County NICE buses and the LIRR still get places

fingers crossed I get back to NYC 🤞

tyty :3

money no, it’s pretty cheap to get there, it’s combination of the first and last.

I’m still enrolled in high school and live at home, graduating this summer. they meet on Tuesday afternoons and it’s ~30 min drive or a 1hr bus ride one-way, not to mention the fact that I can’t tell spawnpoint where I’m actually going. with that time and distance I can’t just say I’m staying after school, at friend’s house or the library and get away with it like I usually do. best case scenario, I lie and never get caught. worst case, I end up getting back long after I’ve been asked to and… yeah this isn’t going to work.

they gave me other resources on a different slip that may be closer, so I’ll have to take a closer look. if I don’t find anything easier to get to, there’s not much I can do

how it should be!! I’m thankful I’m in an area with some transit

they are currently multiplying in my home as you can see but I’ll try to keep them under control

no luck with spawnpoint. I have to act like everything’s normal at home, poker face is good but it’s a draining process internally. friends are my escape because they support me unconditionally :3

yeah my optimism has been quite high as of recent. throughout my life I’ve been expected to do a lot of things independently and I usually find ways to get what I want eventually. the downside to that is I always ask for help far too late when people are willing to help me. I tried to be up front with my mom first, but my intuition said not to have high expectations as sad as that sounds and it turns out I was right

yeah… I’ll try and process this experience now and not let it hit me like a truck at some random point in the future

for now I have my friends. I don’t know where I’ll find my next family or what that will look like, but I think just heading to college would be a good place to start. a long 4 months before then though… :(

I think that’s what I’ll do. She’s still wants me to worry about “more important” things first and put this off until later, so I won’t be telling her anything else from now on.

It’s sad that she won’t be there to support me now, if ever, and that I can’t be honest with her. But I’m not trying to seek that external validation. My mind is clear. I know what makes me happy. I know what I need to do to improve my life. I’ll just have to do it on my own.

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1!!! but my haj is small TwT

KDE shaky shaky

what if the stuff stops going on and the thoughts consume

thx ❤️❤️ many of the F/M train swap jokes have not gone to waste!!

glad I wasn’t the only one… Nextcloud is something I always have open so fixing the dashboard really made me feel better

not in this one, but I do have other friend groups that do!! I’ll def post an update…

they must be putting some different stuff in the water near me /j bc unfortunately I already have quite a bit of hair growth in all those places, my voice is deep, and I’m tall :(

I’ve already shaved some parts and that feels nice :3 but the voice thing is bothering me a lot…

yet my mindset has become so much better (!!) with all the support here… with that hair gone… I’m not giving up now, not when it feels this good ❤️

tsym again for the honesty and thoroughness of your responses ❤️ it’s helping me figure out what I need to do and the order I’ll prioritize them

I have a pharmacy nearby that I usually pick up my prescriptions from, but now that you mention the people issue I’ll have to consider that factor. Injections sound doable to me and I’ll take a look at the other options as well. As for having kids, the idea just isn’t for me.

currently looking for a parttime job that’s accessible to me (walk, bike, transit) and I’ll set that as higher priority. I do have some money from an as needed/contract type thing I’m doing but it’s not reliable

yeah working on getting that help seems like a smaller task now comparatively speaking. I’ll try my best.

and yes yes tips are appreciated!! I can say right now is that I don’t resonate at all with the hyperactive struggles, more with the inattentive bits, and especially with the descriptions of executive dysfunction. My mom is also one of those people that repeats the old lie that “everyone has a little bit of ADHD”, but I suspect that’s more ignorance than maliciousness.