Just a chime bearer speedrunning the entropic decline of existence since the fall of Od Nua

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Cake day: March 19th, 2025

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  • honestly, I feel the same. When I started out I probably waited 5-6 months before I started dressing outside and didn’t feel like I was full time for like a year. Then even after that I definitely didn’t pass and I was broke while trying to find my style (pretty expensive) without help bc my mom wouldn’t help me/give me good advice. So then I eventually had to adopt a fairly neutral/androgynous look for years until I just started permanently male failing everywhere. 😮‍💨 Part of it was my hair since I had accidentally been getting it braided in a male way (lemme tell you I was completely clueless 💀) but the other part was I stopped starving myself and gained alot of weight. That sounds bad but I was at like 15-16 bmi for a while and the doctors were telling me that my total cholesterol was dangerously low somehow 🤷🏾‍♀️

    And like when it was happening I was honestly confused if people were just playing along or not at least at first but then I always remember the disgust people had when I was starting out or just the random harassment. It’s almost affirming that they’re so stupid.

    That being said the shit I hear/have heard from cissies has sworn me off from being open about my past outside of specific circumstances. You never forget that look when people start treating you differently than they used to because they realize you’re trans.








  • I was uh 19? 20? something like that.

    Came out because I realized that my insurance covered hrt and I was going to get it. That’s just how I think about things sometimes I just decide on something and do it. Once I get like that I accept all consequences unremorsefully, it is kinda unreasonable I guess. I was on my parents (mom and stepdad ) insurance (thanks Obama) so that could have been bad but I think in the back of my mind I knew that even if my mom didn’t agree she wouldn’t kick me off of her insurance to stop me since I’d die or something.

    Any way I planned to tell my parents in a specific order and for some reason I decided to tell my extremely homophobic/transphobic sperm donor and sister first. That ended up as well as you’d think, I ended up getting assaulted and the police were called on me since I threatened to kms if he didn’t stop attacking me (yeah it’s kinda a 4D chess move 😮‍💨 you wouldn’t get it). Anyway I almost got committed but managed to only get put in PHP and ended up coming out to my mom at the hospital. The first thing she asked me was “why did you come out to him first?” and I was like “I had this plan it apparently wasn’t good but it was mine”.

    looking back it’s funny how the police had actually taken my side but still had to cuff me and take me to the ER. Also why the fuck did that cost like 2k when I didn’t even have a choice of not going to the hospital then 🤔.