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I gotta say, I would warn anybody looking at buying it right now(on pc specifically). It runs pretty poorly, and that really hasn’t improved much over time.

Just make sure you make a dummy char real fast and make sure the actual game runs decently so you don’t hit steams 2hr refund limit during character creation.

I own it, I cleared low rank, and I uninstalled to make space for World again because I can get a rock solid 90 at 1440p in World, while Wilds gets a stuttery 50 to 60, with frame gen, and looks like ass doing it.

Shame cuz I love monster hunter.

Yeah I can’t fuckin print consistent prints on purpose, good fuckin luck doing some kind of forensic analysis about it.

I gotcha, well if you have any other questions I’m glad to answer as best I can :) I hope it does help tho. I haven’t been in the hospital for a while so maybe my advice isn’t great but if you’re interested:

Depression for me felt like a narrowing of perspective. At that moment everything was how I felt right then. It was how I always felt and how I would always feel. Essentially I felt like life had always been awful, and would always be awful, because it was awful right then. Everybody is different and has different reasons they’re struggling, so I’m not trying to make blanket claims too much, but I think it’s safe to say that change in life is inevitable. Sometimes the best we can do is hang on and wait for the next change.

I’ve been in a psych ward before, albeit around 5 years ago and in a different state. To preface, I don’t want to freak you out, just want you to have an informed choice.

I’ll not sugarcoat it, it’s meant to do one thing. Keep you alive. Everything is built around doing that at a low cost. Your insurance may or may not cover a stay. If you’re voluntary they’ll probably still bill you. Involuntary can depend on the circumstances but they usually still bill your insurance. Apply for financial aid if you can.

Stay time will depend on the state, but for me in Idaho, it was usually one of two options. Suicidal people or people with shorter term issues like a bipolar episode will spend about a week in a short term ward. Not much to do. Shared Tv room, some books. You will not keep clothes with strings, belts, etc. no phone. They will likely not give you any meds you don’t have an active prescription for. Because it’s meant to be short term, and meant to keep you alive long enough to stabilize, they will probably want to try new or different doses of meds while you stay. They can try things faster than you could at home because you’re essentially monitored 24/7.

They will likely search you. It’ll usually only be initially in a room with a couple people (more than 1 is for accountability’s sakes, if they don’t have another person by default I believe you can ask for another person in the room).

Longer term stays usually require some kind of court hearing where you’d go to state and that’s pretty hard to do. The state hospitals are usually pretty busy and so you really only go there if you can’t care for yourself at all, or you’re so actively suicidal that you’re still like planning things out after a week or two. Even if you’re on the path to state that can take a couple weeks at a short time term place and feeling better will get you out quick in that case.

You might see your doc once on the day you arrive and again once a week. You mostly interact with nurses or nurse assistants. All the staff I interacted with over quite a few visits were decent people who wanted to help. I know that isn’t true of everyone, they’re human after all, but I think most of them do want to help.

They aren’t going to have many options to shave, at the short term facility I’ve been to you could ask but it was kinda a pain and it had to be approved and yes you’d be supervised with a razor. This depends place to place tho.

Transphobia is a real issue and yes I did experience some. Staff aren’t trained for trans people specifically but they do see a lot of us. Lets say I met a lot of trans people in the psych hospital. Mostly suicidal. Imagine that. Staff can be hit or miss with name and pronouns, especially if you haven’t changed name or anything. Usually a reminder is enough, if not mention it to a head nurse or even your doc. Most places will accommodate changing name where they can, it’ll vary from place to place.

If somebody is a jerk to you, transphobia or otherwise, ideally staff will step in. Anytime anyone was shitty and I mentioned it they separated us where they could, and that usually resolved things. That will depend on how much space the facility has too. Staff was never outright transphobic. At worst they were ignorant and when I mentioned a preference or frustration they fixed it as possible.

Food was pretty fine. I’d describe it as a step above school cafeteria depending on the place. They accomodate allergies pretty well, and usually have some kind of option. So like burger or sandwich or chicken, but the burger option is always there, and they have like chips and sides and stuff, and cycle the chicken or sandwich options.

The biggest thing I’ll say is that they exist to do one thing. Keep you alive, get you stable, get you out. So it will probably feel like a lot of lost privileges and rights, and a ton of scary meds or changes. They aren’t trying to torment you, but because they deal with everything from suicidal to drug addicted to completely out of touch with reality, you’re essentially given the trust level of a toddler. No sharps, no strings, no doors, no locks, no electronics, etc. It sucks, but it does the job(short term). A week is long enough to try new meds, or restart old ones. Long enough for a manic episode to fade, or a suicidal phase to pass. You still come back and have to put the pieces back together afterwards, but if you simply need a place to fall to pieces for a week, it lets you.

TLDR: (sorry im horribly disorganized)

• They likely won’t let you do DIY HRT inside but I don’t have personal experience there.
• Some places let you shave, likely supervised.
• In my experience I was only searched initially when I first went in.
• For me, staff was at worst ignorant and changed when I asked, some patients were bleh, but staff separated us where they could.
• Food was fine, not amazing, they did have some choices and they catered to allergies pretty well from what I saw, always had some alternatives.

6 weeks isn’t very long, and if you’re just starting your likely on a lower dose as your doc ramps you up to whatever level works.

I’d talk to your doc or whoever prescribed you the meds about dosages and what your levels are, they usually monitor with bloodwork to try to get you in the normal ranges, and if you have concerns they will usually work with you to try to get the results you want.

But yeah. i didn’t really notice breast development for a good few months(partially due to my weight too at the time), and they didn’t really stop growing for a few years. It was just a lot of very slow growth over time.

Oh. This is their vision quest optional ad thing. Not that its great but these exist on desktop already, and can be completely disabled in settings. This post just now reminded me that they made that, I turned it off and completely forgot.

They also say that the option to disable it will exist on mobile too. Its shitty that there are ads at all but this is about the least offensive option I’ve ever seen. Can’t promise it won’t creep out and get worse later but yeah.

Can I just say your thoroughness here is a real fucking impressive skill. Thank you for sharing.

I feel bad for the minority of owners who may have bought before Musk was so obviously shitty. I didn’t really think of him as anything more than the usual tech ceo until the “calling a rescue diver a pedo” thing.

And I mean it’s likely a very small minority, but I think a more focused protest would be artistically altering cars on sales lots, or on factory lots. Obviously a lot harder to do, so like, any tesla over no tesla? But I’d prioritize the newer models, and ones that tesla still owns or will likely have to pay to reimburse, gets you the bonus of costing them more money outside stocks/sales.

It was a quiz about historical figures in LGBTQ+ history. And they called it indecent. What a bunch of fucking idiotic bigots.

Well yeah, just next election replace him.

Primary the fucker. I’m tired of these shitty halfassed center obsessed babies who spend their time trying to appease republicans instead of standing up to them.

The term server used to refer to a computer, running something like a web page. People connect to that specific server.

In discord, a server is just a name for a community, a label for your group. You can change channels, add new voice chats, change the icon, set up rules, bots to enforce rules, roles, pings for those roles, etc.

But at the end of the day those files are stored with discord, on discord’s “servers” as in traditional server infrastructure. If discord decides all servers must serve a number of “sponsored posts” in general chat, for instance, you can’t just not comply. Your server is part of their infrastructure. They can do what they want when they want. If discord decides to go paid only, you can’t keep your server free, as another example. You cannot self host the actual files or software that makes up your discord server.

There are cases of a couple dairy workers getting mild cases of bird flu from getting raw milk splashed in their eye while working, so yes it’s not terribly unlikely.

Most of the time, 60. But it depends.

Competitive FPS/action games I want 120, story games with FPS 60, anything turn based or slow paced is probably fine at 30 or 40. It also depends on a lot of other factors. On my handheld (steam deck like) I aim for 30 or 40, but my main PC always shoots for 60 or higher.

That and I usually tune my settings so I get a bit more than 60, then lock the framerate to reduce stutter.

Hell ya

Segregate and control the lessons. A public school probably can’t teach the US is a Christian nation or that being gay is evil, but a religious private school…

Hopefully we can at least move to a safer state when our current lease runs out, moving is just expensive chaos is all, and our lease is for another year and a half :/ Worst case we just hop in the car and leave but that’s less than ideal.

As a broke disabled trans person, who isn’t getting out of the country let alone shitty red state my SO and I are in anytime soon, yes please. I should’ve gotten a passport when I had the chance but here we are…

I couldn’t figure out how to edit it while it was “removed” so I just deleted it, it probably isn’t really helpful for me to have a post on this that is, in essence “I won’t misgender you buuuuuut” and dump all my misconceptions and realizations about irrational anxieties like y’all are my therapist. I agree with you, no matter what I believe respect requires using somebody’s preferred pronouns.

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