“Anxiety Out”

Day in, day out
I want to kill the world
When my anxiety is out
Tell me to break a leg
I want to kill the world
When my anxiety is out

A stampede caves in my chest
Bests the best in me
Before I have chance to succeed

An attack of the highest degree
Dragging me to the lowest hell
You’ll agree

Awareness is the pain
Would name it but its not a game

Day in, day out
I’m gonna kill the world
When my anxiety comes out
Tell me to break a leg
I’m gonna kill the world
When my anxiety comes out

Awareness is the pain
Watching my insides scramble
And crash into my heart, ample
Fire inside and out
Killing my world
Make it damnable
Make it extra crispy
Drop me in the grease trap
Char until you can’t see me
And pour me down the drain

“Can you do this?”
I can do that
The constant question
“Wrong weight”
“Wrong price”
“But that’s always the price”
I can do that

Day in, day out
I’m gonna kill the world
When they bring my anxiety out
And tell me how to fix it
I’m gonna kill the world
When they bring my anxiety out

A few more lines to draw
The ones I want to walk
When my anxiety is out Exposed to the world
When my anxiety comes out

Is my life gonna crash?
Will the advice work?
Did she really mean it?
Does he actually listen?
What happens when my soul doesn’t glisten?
Will it fade?
Will it stay?
Questions flood me
Day in, day out

And when someone tells me how to fix it
I’ll try to remember their grace
Fuck that
I wanna say this to their face
Fuck you
Fuck that
Fuck your platitude
And fuck your advice
What works for you
Might work for me
But I already played my hand and rolled my dice
Day in, and day out
I would fix my world in a day
If it meant I could free my time

I’m sure you mean well
Fuck you, tho

Time, money, place
Three angles
All perspective
If you can’t even see one
Fuck you, too

So when I say fuck you
I want to break your leg
If it’s so easy, just fix it

Day in, day out
I killed the world
When my anxiety came out
Shit haunts me when I take a new route
At least I killed the world
And I’m on the way out
Fuck my anxiety, I’ll figure it out