And I don’t mean metaphorically tired, like physically tired. I feel like since Trump took office the amount of mental load consumed by his antics (edit: fascism in general) has physically worn me down. I used to have energy to exercise, do hobbies, or like even yardwork. Now all I want to do is lay in bed. I even have a hard time spending time with my family and friends. Luckily I am still engaged and productive at work, but that’s the only time I feel good which is not what I want out of life.
I probably should just up my antidepressants and log off
You’re not alone, my therapist brought up recently that he talks with a lot of people who feel very overwhelmed and exhausted by it all.
I can’t advice about the meds, I can advise about the logging off: hanging on to every word or new development is exhausting. Hypervigilance is exhausting. It’s also bad for you, and you’re suffering the effects. Idk about “log off”, but you could try to keep your internet stuff to the cozier spaces so as to not be exposed to the constant stream of trumpian disaster news. I rarely go off Hexbear.
I will also plug this effortpost I wrote. It doesn’t seem like a 1:1 transferrable siituation, but there’s some stuff that could be helpful. In particular if you understand that he uses threats, uncertainty, and unpredictability to control people, make them easier to dominate and goad into extreme-seeming reactions. Now that I write it out that way, there are similarities with abusive strategies in interpersonal relationships.
https://hexbear.net/post/6306275