Hi, I identify as a gay man for now and I feel disconnected from womanhood, but my body is female. I want to know how normal it is for women not to be comfortable in their own bodies and wish they had bodily characteristics of a born male. I’ve felt that way ever since I was eight or seven, so it got me thinking that I could have known I was a boy even then.
I wanted to cut my hair short because it looked more boyish and I hated being called “girly”. I wanted to be accepted among the guys and I considered myself just a “tomboy”.
For me It is a combination of seeing my self as ugly and hating my fat body. Sometimes I wished I didn’t have a sex drive or was a woman. But I know all of that is from trauma. It seems to me that people’s definitions of man and woman are more a collection of stereotypes than reality. If one doesn’t fit the definition than their definition isn’t broad enough.