I know it’s a at best a useless mindset, as nothing will make me somehow magically get a new chance at those years. But it’s still a strong feeling and it’s still there.
I’m doing my best to push through it, I’m out there talking to people, but there’s usually a point where we are sharing personal anecdotes and I just feel my stomach tightening, as I barely have any of those. I have no experiences which means I have no identity which means I am uninteresting.
Holy shit, this post is gold. I need to internalise this, I need to internalise this, I need to internalise this, I need to internalise this…
To add something a bit more constructive: I always feel deeply sad about the stories where “they never learned,” probably because it’s so relatable. What a tragedy to go so long and never figure it out. I want to learn, I want to change, I want to be better.
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